Almost half-a-century ago, I had set my brain and my heart on becoming an English professor. Along the way, I had set my sights on an unreasonable goal. To read every bit of English literature ever written. I knew that was impossible. But it didn't stop me from wanting to do it.
I'd read five books a week. I was Hardy about Hardy, rabid for Wolff, and Wolfe, and galloped after Canterbury.
I also knew that being an English professor was a modest sort of a job. That teaching Jonathon Swift or Mary Wallstonecroft or Charles Dickens would never lead to riches. But I had grown up with a father who pursued Mammon without restraint. He had one heart-attack when he was 39 (I was just nine) and another when he was 44. I saw what the fleshpots of Madison Avenue could do to your arteries. I wanted nothing of it.
Early on, maybe I was 14, my tenth grade class took a field trip to Stratford, Connecticut where there was a prestigious Shakespeare theater. We saw a wonderful production of Macbeth, for my money one of Shakespeare's best. It was probably the first time I had seen Shakespeare performed, and while many people expect to be bored out of their minds with Shakespeare, I was rapt.
Eight years later, when I was getting my Master's degree in English Literature at Columbia University, I had a professor who said a sentence of two, and all the pieces fell into place for me.
She said something like, "Listen to Bach, and you can see that the world at this time extolled order. There's a place for everything. The universe is mechanistic--almost mechanical. It's metronomic and sensible."
I remember thinking about that in a New York City that had jumped the rails. A year after the black-out riots. Four years after bankruptcy. Maybe I had Bird or Coltrane on the radio. About as far from an orderly universe as you could get at the time. That was New York. Dissonant.
The professor above switched to Macbeth.
It's been almost fifty years, and I still can't shake this bit of Shakespeare. I think about it almost every day.
Is there a better one-word summation of our recent election and today's world than "hurlyburly"?
But there's more than hurlyburly.
There's the destruction of reality.
The battle is lost AND won. There is no truth. All is relative. All is subject to interpretation, disagreement, propaganda, lies.
And even worse, and even more astute with regard to today's mayhem:
Fair is foul, and foul is fair.
Again.
There is no reality.
There is no truth.
Bad is good.
Dirt is clean.
War is peace.
Hate is love.
Bad treatment is good.
Ignoring is listening.
Diversity isn't inclusive.
Inclusivity isn't diverse.
Equity isn't fair.
The ad industry is Macbethian as well.
Agencies with 40% attrition rates are named agency of the year. Holding companies that have shed 40,000 employees are named network of the year. Though it's been years since I've seen a good spot of TV, everyone boasts about their awards.
Best use of the phrase "act now." Most original "triple play bundle."
This is hurlyburly.
This is foul is fair.
The main thing I learned from all my years of studying literature is how easy it can be.
In Shakespeare's time, in Bach's, in ours, we craved an orderly universe and bad things happened when kings were killed; when order was upset.
That's pretty easy to understand. Bad things happen when bad things happen. A man denies he lost. A man proclaims himself to have won. A man says a cure is a disease. Bad shit ensues.
As Jimmy Durante, or Bachman-Turner Overdrive used to say, "you ain't see nuthin' yet."
We ain't
Dissonance.
When someone loses and says he wins.
Dissonance.
This is what's happening everywhere we look.
We accept lies and we're surprised by truth.
Hurlyburly.
Shakespeare was wrong.
Hurlyburly is never done.