One of the biggest issues in my life--and it has been for 55 years, is that "I am fine."
I take a lot of shit on.
I do a lot.
You can throw crap my way and I handle it.
I am fine.
On the weekend, I was not fine. And by the time Monday rolled around I was the apotheosis of unfine.
But I traipsed out to Minnesota to sell a campaign.
My agency needed me to.
My client needed me to and "I would be fine."
Even after the car accident Monday night I said to the ambulance driver, "I'm fine."
I just wanted to get home and see my visiting daughter,
Well, now I have been in the hospital since Wednesday.
And am only now approaching fine.
I won't pyschoanalyze here my need to provide, come through, be fine.
I can only promise to try a little less hard.
And I'll probably be fine.
Ouch George -- does not make for a good week. Hope you're well soon.
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George --
ReplyDeleteI so glad you're OK.
Get well soon,
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i had a mini breakdown this session. i was fine doing everything, running around without my head on, doing wake ups every morning, being last to bed every night. Until that moment i got to the support boat and they told me to just sit and breath for a moment, and then it all came crashing down on me. sometimes it takes someone making you sit for a moment to realize you're not fine. Anyways its all good now, trip is over, kids had a great time, and i'm having my day off, and i really do feel well. i love you lots. i'm glad you took a minute to rest yourself before you wreck yourself.
ReplyDeletei was fine carrying my trip alone, being fist up in the morning for wake ups, last to sleep doing paperwork, running around without my head on my shoulders, until i went to the support boat and they told me to sit and breath and it all came crashing down on me. sometimes you need to have breath for a minute - nothing else just breath - to realize your not just fine. check yourself before you wreck yourself faj. love you muchly.
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